FIC: Older & Far Away 3/4, R, S/W
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starlit_desiresI rated this part R, not that's full of a lot of smut or anything but I'd rather have a heavier rating on it than not. Let me know if you think its too high of a rating. This part was actually harder for me to write even though I knew where I wanted to go with it.
Title: Older & Far Away 3/4
Author: Sweetness (aaronlisa@gmail.com
Pairing: Spike/Willow
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Joss Whedon and company own the Buffyverse.
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lilbrek . Set about five years after the events in “Not Fade Away.”
Willow couldn’t believe that she had let Spike talk her into performing the spell that would alter the events that had taken place the night that they had fought and defeated Glory. Part of her kept telling herself that performing the spell without Buffy’s permission was just wrong. But to do it without Dawn’s approval was worse, especially since they could be destroying her life. Yet somehow the arrogant bleached blond had managed to convince her of the necessity of the spell. And there had been no way that she could turn her back on what the First had started to do in its campaign to destroy Buffy and the Slayer line.
She had wanted to contact Dawn and Buffy but Spike refused to let her do so. He had told her that it would either lead to her losing what little resolve she had or to Buffy forcibly preventing them from performing the spell. Despite the mistrust and anger she felt for Buffy, Willow couldn’t help but feel that she was betraying her friend. Spike had only told her to get used to the feeling.
In the two weeks since Spike had shown up on her doorstep, Willow had become extremely confused about the vampire. His attitude towards her fluctuated between cold and impersonal to warm and friendly. She never knew if he was going to comfort her or snarl at her. One minute he would be telling her that she should get used to betraying Buffy and then the next he would be telling her that Buffy was an egomaniac that didn’t deserve her devotion. It only seemed to cause Willow question his motivation more and the consequences in performing the spell.
During the day as she collected the items that she would need to perform the spell, she could turn her mind off and not think about his confusing behaviour. But at night, when she was in her bed waiting for sleep, his words would come back to haunt her. And she wondered if Spike was setting her up somehow. Finally on the night before they would cast the spell, Willow became obsessive with the idea that he might really be the First and not Spike at all. She couldn’t remember touching him during the last two weeks.
The ramifications of that terrified her and prevented her from sleeping. Finally she devised a plan that would allow her to find out if he was really Spike or if he was the First. All she had to do was go to the room that he was sleeping in and touch him. If she weren’t able to touch him, well then she would know what he really was. And if she could touch him, well she would feel a lot better. Plus he would never know about her doubts.
Willow slowly crept to the guest room with her heart in her mouth. She was terrified about what she would find in the room. However nothing could have prepared for what she actually encountered.
* * *
Spike had heard her creeping down the hallway and wondered what the red haired witch was up to now. He knew that she was nervous about casting the spell. He had tried to calm her down, but he didn’t know what to say to her. Especially since nothing he said seemed to help. It didn’t help either that she confused him. One moment he desired her and the next she infuriated him for what he believed she had done to Buffy. And then he would start to wonder about how she was better than Buffy and how her skin tasted. He was in a constant state of arousal around her.
He heard her stop in front of his door. And as she slowly pushed it open, his hand crept involuntarily down to his erection. He hissed as skin touched skin. And all rational thought fled his mind as he watched her creep into the room.
* * *
Willow gasped as she watched Spike’s hand slide up and down his erection. She couldn’t quite remember why she was there and what she had been planning on doing. She stood there memorized as she watched him.
“See something you like?”
”Uh, w-what?”
“Why don’t you join me, pet?”
“I-I can’t.”
Willow fled the room in a panic. She wasn’t quite sure what had just happened but it had certainly shocked her. When she reached her room, she ran in and quickly closed the door behind her as if he was stalking her. As she leaned against the cool wood and groaned in frustration, she realized that she hadn’t touched him. And now she desperately wanted to touch him. And it wasn’t to find out if he was really the First masquerading as the sexy vampire.
**TBC**
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Date: 2005-03-13 06:44 pm (UTC)Tonya
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Date: 2005-03-13 06:48 pm (UTC)Tonya
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Date: 2005-03-13 07:25 pm (UTC)Gabrielle
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Date: 2005-03-13 07:29 pm (UTC)Also this part took me most of today just to write and then type it up. And I knew what I wanted to happen in it too.
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Date: 2005-03-13 07:33 pm (UTC)Gabrielle
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Date: 2005-03-13 07:35 pm (UTC)I am really glad that you enjoyed this part. I just hope that the last part will meet your expectations.
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Date: 2005-03-13 07:46 pm (UTC)Gabrielle